It's been a month.. It was an undescribable, crazy feeling back then. That time, I was anxious, walking back and forth, dont know what to do, but I wasn't crying: I was in denial, I didn't enter her room, I just looked from afar. I knew that time will certainly come, it was hard to accept when it came to reality. I spent my days with her. I was one of her darlings. She gave everything I want. From toys to dresses. When she arrives from a trip, there's always a pasalubong. There was a time when she asked me what do I like as a pasalubong when she gets home, I said something with Pocahontas on it. And she came home with Pocahontas coloring books. She even gives me money to buy my sickness so I wont be ill anymore. Granny also had that suhol habit, she gave us money to buy things or do an errand for her, idk a grandchild who didnt like that. She taught me how to dance Cha-cha. We dance around and did some exercises in our sala. I felt really special. She brings me to her office way back when she was still the cashier of DENR. She calls her office "hawla". Granny was a foodie. She spents too much on food. There was a time when she cooked so many suman, biko and latik for all saints and souls days. Just to finish it, she slept so late it was nearly dawn. She also cooks pancit canton for us cousins. Granny was extravagant on clothing. It was always made by the sastre. When she sees a beautiful cut on TV, she will copy it and let it be made. She also fancied the colors of the dresses, she would say "gwapo kaayo ang kulay". She always wanted terno. I remember when Granny let's us put her tina/hair color. She always wanted to look young and feel young. That's why she also wanted us to call her Granny not Lola. She always had her manicure and pedicure. I recall that its hard to cut her nails because there were tiny flesh beneath it that bleeds easily. I remember their were times that i hurt her because i wasnt careful enough. My grandma was a maldita type and she had many things to say and you can feel it in her actions. There was a time when I was bathing her in her bathroom, I asked her "Granny, maaga pa man daw noon nagayawyaw ka na." She answered, "oo, alas dos pa ng umaga." Hehehe straightforward talking it was. It made me smile. She was just true to herself. I wanted her to feel special too, I can just do little things back then. I promised her things I know she'll be proud of, but she had gone already. I am sad that I wrote this thing in past tense. Granny Tecs, you are always in our hearts.. I love you, i miss you👵💕
